An Assortment of Thoughts and Experiences
I sat there, confused and feeling awkward. Sure, the awkwardness was a familiar feeling for me, but this, this I was not prepared for. I looked around, feeling the anxiety run through my blood. I wanted to leave, but weighed down by inexperience, I stayed where I was. I watched those around me, everyone leaned … Continue reading The One Where I Walked Away
You can drown in grief. Often enough when I feel that I’ve made my way to shore, I’m swept away yet again, lost in the midst of the pounding waves. Some hit me at such a force that I think I’m close to giving in, ready to succumb to it all. Other times the waves … Continue reading The Power of Grief
“Chickens?” My husband looked at me, his face showing both interest and confusion. I nodded, “I want chickens.” I grew up with a big yard and plenty of room to run. In fact, for my ninth birthday, my parents decided there was enough room for a pet lamb. I remember walking into the front yard … Continue reading We Sold and Bought a Home During the Pandemic
“I love Pink Lloyd.” I felt the blood drain from my face as the realization hit that I said the wrong name. After an awkward pause, the heat began to come back, filling my cheeks with embarrassment and a need to recover myself. “Oh, me too!” He was being nice, but fans of Pink Floyd … Continue reading The One Where He Let Me Go
You cried for me last night. This wasn’t a normal cry, but a cry that I felt in my heart and in my bones. It was a cry for me, your mama, and I knew it. I went into your room and you immediately stood. Your hair was stuck to your face from the tears … Continue reading An Open Letter to My Toddler
My social media accounts say, "crochet enthusiast," but that doesn't actually mean that I'm good at it. In terms of skill, I'm probably teetering within intermediate, but careless mistakes ought to throw me right back into beginner (you'll see why); however, I still love the process. I follow several yarn accounts on Instagram and many … Continue reading My Attempt at the Home Girl Sweater
Rome. Paris. London. Experiencing other cultures and exploring. Sounds dreamy, doesn’t it? I couldn’t help but discover just that kind of lifestyle on Instagram last night, only to imagine myself walking in those shoes. I found an old classmate's account by pure coincidence and then proceeded down the rabbit hole of what her life is … Continue reading we are #morethan
I cried, a lot. When I say a lot, I don't mean I shed a few tears, but instead it likens more to a torrential downpour. I had the ugly crying face on repeat, and it didn't seem like it was ever going to get better. After giving birth to Aria, I made sure to … Continue reading Postpartum Depression: Don’t Keep it a Secret
Fear captivated me; it captivated me in such a way that I could feel its grip and the very walls around me caving in. My best option was to simply walk out, so I did. I walked down the hallway, looking for something, searching. I just needed to get away, and yet, I knew my … Continue reading Take Me to Church: A Relationship Worth Starting
The test was positive. I was internally freaking out, I mean...the test was positive! I looked at Felice, him already able to read my face. I told him to get out and shoved him out the bathroom door. I got on my knees and grabbed Sam, forcing her to look me in the eye. “Sam,” … Continue reading 3 Steps in Dealing with the Loss of Your Pet
In Between the Margins 