An Assortment of Thoughts and Experiences
"I heard a dog died here." A simple, innocent comment made by a child hit me like a ton of bricks. We don't talk about Eddie's death. Quite frankly, the weight of grief and guilt has been unbearable; it is consuming. I have done my best to repress his memory in hopes of moving forward, … Continue reading Grief Stricken: Dealing with the Aftermath of Trauma
I was mortified. I brought my boyfriend to a family cookout and there was my dad, trying to feed him a disguised chili dog. Spoiler alert: the contents inside the bun were left by a furry friend. My cousin, possibly not wanting to have to stomach the outcome or perhaps knowing that our relationship would … Continue reading The One With The Boys in Between
I sat there, confused and feeling awkward. Sure, the awkwardness was a familiar feeling for me, but this, this I was not prepared for. I looked around, feeling the anxiety run through my blood. I wanted to leave, but weighed down by inexperience, I stayed where I was. I watched those around me, everyone leaned … Continue reading The One Where I Walked Away
You can drown in grief. Often enough when I feel that I’ve made my way to shore, I’m swept away yet again, lost in the midst of the pounding waves. Some hit me at such a force that I think I’m close to giving in, ready to succumb to it all. Other times the waves … Continue reading The Power of Grief
Recently scrolling through the notes saved on my iPhone, I found one that I saved from December 20, 2014. Nearly four years later, my husband and I are expecting our first child, and I smile at how certain we were in our relationship and how much we've grown together since then. It was the best … Continue reading A Note about Marriage
In Between the Margins 